I Don’t Know What I Am

I was going to head the blog post “I’m sad”.  But I’m not sure that is correct.  “I’m tired” might be closer to the truth.  Or, “I’m sick”.  Maybe, “I’m hurting,” or “I’m concerned”.  So many feelings running around inside of me right now.

It doesn’t help that I am not feeling well.  It also doesn’t help that I’m not feeling well for the second month in a row now.  I just went through a bout last month when I got the flu.  Now, I am recovering from a wicked sinus infection which is doing its best to turn into bronchitis.

I cannot afford to get sick.  Easter is coming quick and there is so much that needs to be done.  In order to get everything accomplished, I have to move at lightning speed.  However, in order not to relapse, I need to slow down.

Speed up or slow down?  Hmmm.  Which will I choose.

That’s why I don’t know how I feel.  There’s too much to do and too little time to do it in and I cannot afford the “luxury” of an illness.  I guess I just don’t do sick well, eh?